Are you here to change the world or be the change you want to see in the world? I know some of you reading this know that you are. If you look at the dark and believe there should be more light, if you want to raise the vibration of the earth, if you wish to help people awaken, if you consider yourself a light worker, healer, facilitator, agent of change of any kind then I ask you to consider this…
If you are here to change the world, for you to complete your task/mission/purpose there must be something to change. If you consider yourself a light worker, then there must be dark that needs light or you will not be able to reach your intention. So to change the world there must be things that need changing. To enlighten the world there must be things that need enlightening. To heal the world there must be things that need healing. If this is true, then why rage at the dark, the low vibration, the wounded? Without it you cannot do your work and fulfill your purpose. The sun lights the earth. That is what it does. Can you imagine if it got angry every time it was called to work? That’s a lot of energy wasted on things other than doing the work it was created to do.
Embrace the knowing that change is happening. That is happening through you and with you when you make the conscious choice. It is through those changes that we are given the opportunity to fulfill our role in this world. If you are here to change the world then do it with thoughtfulness, mindfulness, awareness and kindness.
Bless the dark. Bless the light. Do your work and don’t waste time on raging against what is, raging against the very thing that gives you the work you were meant to do.
Brought to tears
By the beauty of the wasteland
Of my past
I am honored by all that I have been given
For the first time
Judgments float by untethered and released
I breathe in the purity of my soul
For the first time
I touch the air warm and thick with potential
And the masses in my perception disintegrate
For the first time
The truths of my obsessions and the timing of my fears
Ring false and out of rhythm with the quietness within
For the first time
I am the knowing and the being
I am the guide and the guided
The fearful and the courageous
The lies and the truth
For the first time
I am the beauty
I am the love
I am the everything
For the first time
I am all.
The often popular idea that admitting, expressing or even feeling those “bad”, “negative” or “ugly” feelings is somehow saying that we are weak or not spiritual enough is crap. There is no shame in feeling pain or sadness or grief. There is no apologizing that needs to occur and often there is no fixing that needs to happen. If we would just allow ourselves the space to feel what we feel and be strong enough to allow others the space they need to feel what they feel there would be less pain in this world, because when we stuff, hide, deny or lie about pain we create more pain. When we give our pain space and time to move through, it often will, naturally, on it’s own. In our human experience we are given every opportunity to grow and expand, sometimes it is painful but when we allow it, we do exactly that, grow and expand.
Last year I began a new mantra “I am free of fear.” When I first started saying it I heard my mind fight back saying “NO – fear is not always bad, sometimes it keeps you safe.” At first I did not know what to say to my response to my mantra so I did not respond and keep saying to myself “I am free of fear.” After a day or two I went through it again. I said my mantra, my mind responded and then awareness blossomed. Fear does not keep us safe, wisdom and understanding does. While being fearful of fire will probably keep you away from fire it does not necessarily keep you safe from being hurt by fire. If you were put in a situation with fire it is very likely you might be unable to act to take care of yourself because of your fear. When you can approach fire with wisdom and an understanding of how it works and what it can do there is no fear. There is respect.
Then I became aware of fear one early morning. I was lying in bed around 4am and suddenly I felt fear. It was a heaviness, tightness and a darkness. If you have felt fear you understand how it feels. I immediately started to attach reasons to feel fear and all those things that I could worry about came to mind. It was like my mind was trying to put labels to what my spirit was experiencing. Then I realized that the fear itself was not attached to a reason, like, being able to pay my bills, failing at my business, being alone forever but it was a separate item. Fear was fear; I was choosing to put a label to it. When I came to this awareness, I stopped and something amazing happened. I understood that I did not have to label it to match any experience I had that I could simply see it as something that was not me, a separate energy. I saw my natural habitual response of feeling fear then put a label that fit my experience on it. Then I would obsess about the label, taking my energy away from the actual cause which was the shared experience of fear and focus on the symptom not the cause.
For us, for humanity, it is not about eradicating the fear OF something it is about disconnecting from fear. Our minds attach the “of something” – whatever it is that fits our life experience, fear of not having enough money, enough food, being cheated on, dying, of losing someone we love, losing our status – this list is infinite. We have believed that when we experience fear there must be a reason for it. We put a label on it. I now understand that when we run around healing the fear “of something” we are healing small pieces, which is important and not complete.
When we can experience fear as it is something outside of us that we habitually label with our own experience and take in as ours then we realize that we do NOT have to own or accept it as part of us. It is something outside of us that we can choose to see as outside of us, not take it in as our own and allow it to pass by. As fear has fewer humans to live in will be transformed to light for there will be nowhere else for it to go.
When we have been hurt, traumatized, taken advantage of, lied to, there comes a time when we will have to trust again. Well, maybe we won’t HAVE to but I can guarantee you that we will be called upon again to trust and make ourselves vulnerable to being hurt. In these situations I hear many people talk about trying to figure out when it will be okay to trust again. Sometimes they ask how they ever will trust again.
The true, unbeatable, undeniable fact is that if we are ever going to trust anyone/thing again we MUST choose to be vulnerable. We can put up as many tests, obstacles, demands of proof we wish but if we are ever going to trust again it is and will only ever be because we chose to be vulnerable again. That is it. It is really that simple. Another simple fact is when we are walking around this earth wounded that thought terrifies us humans, ALL of us.
As I write this, I want to be clear, I do not advocate trusting someone to act differently when they were still exhibiting the same behavior that caused the break in trust to start with. I believe that we are all beautiful souls but that does not mean we have all been able to manifest that beautiful soul into a beautiful human, all the time. It has been my experience that some fall into the trap of believing this and find themselves hurt repeatedly for that reason. Remember, we can love a rattlesnake and we can love a puppy, both are beautiful expressions of the Divine, in their own way, but when we believe we can treat the rattlesnake as a puppy we are very likely to get hurt. Choosing to pick up a rattlesnake and snuggle it to your face as you would a puppy would probably not be a wise way to share your vulnerability. At least not without expecting to be hurt. In this we learn discernment.
We do not get out of this life experience without being let down and betrayed. We can choose to close ourselves off for the rest of this human experience, OR when we are ready, when we are healed from the pain of our past we can choose to be vulnerable again. After we have healed our wounds, grew in our understanding and embraced our experience can we fully step into our own vulnerability with acceptance. And only we will know when the time is “right” for that to happen. And as always, when we are willing to walk in the beauty of our own vulnerability we actually often do not feel as vulnerable. We feel strong.
It is my job, while in this human body, to allow each moment of this life to move through me. I embrace it and let it go as it widens, deepens, clarifies and expands my expression of love. It is also my job to heal this human body of all the pains and imbalances that came with it, deep within the DNA. I heal the DNA for those who come after me along with those who came before me. It is my job to transmute every moment from what it seems to what it truly is, an expression of love on the highest level. Every step in healing and expression of love is mirrored in the universe instantaneously. As I do this not only do I become the spiritual being that I am but I also heal the world.
We all desire to have a healthy physical body, healthy mental outlook and healthy emotional experiences but how we get to that place is a very personal experience.
Why is it that even the most aware of us humans believe it is okay for us to tell others how they need to heal themselves? It is always interesting to me when I am a member of such a conversation and I hear one human say to another, “This is how you heal and this is the only right way to do it.” Even when someone has education, training or personal experience I always question it when they tell me that their way is the only option.
The truth is, as much as all sides are loath to admit it, people heal with western medical treatments AND people heal with eastern, energetic, holistic, herbal treatments. The healing is personal and will always be based on the human’s body, human’s experience but the soul’s experience/desire/agreement will always take priority. No one can heal someone else, ever. They may hold the keys to help the other unlock their own healing if the client is willing but no one can “make” someone else heal if that someone is not in a place to allow it. Question anyone who tells you otherwise.